2 years cancer free!
It is so amazing to finally be pushing away from it. Finally not have it in every thought and no longer have it as part of the description of me.
While there is nothing positive about having breast cancer or the strain it puts on our lives and the lives of those we love, let’s look at what good came out of it.
For starters I am more apt to say yes to doing things I was afraid of before. The things that I really wanted to do but thought, oh no you can’t do that. Now doing them with the ability to laugh at mistakes and truly experience the joy of the moment is a gift. It has created some really fun times.
I’ve kept off the few pounds I lost during treatment. This is touchy because many lose weight and it’s not always a healthy weight loss. I only lost 5 lbs but I’m super tiny 4’10” so 5 lbs on me is a big deal and hard to get off. Before the breast cancer I had been trying for years to get those pounds off so I am grateful for that.
The ability to create some healthy boundaries.
I have always been the type to jump through hoops to make people happy or like me. It was exhausting and probably lended a hand into creating the cancer. “Disease” is dis-ease. I was always walking on eggshells. During treatment an influential person in my life said some really hurtful things regarding my treatment plan and it was crushing. However I was in such a raw state of self protection I just focused on what I needed to do, and stopped thinking about others opinions on it. The distance during this time has lingered and created some much needed boundaries that I didn’t know how to achieve before. Again another weight loss.
A greater appreciation for the simple things
So many things are taken for granted in our lives with the hustle and bustle of everyday. But now just being thankful for my health makes it so easy to be aware of moments and small things. I have never been more content or more in love with my husband and our children. Each new thing these boys do is a quiet celebration inside me with an exhale that I’ve never known. i am a lucky girl.
It feels so good to not be so tightly wound, walking on eggshells, and self conscious. Thank you cancer for helping me get over myself. That being said,,,,
(~I will survive, Gloria Gaynor)
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